Last week, I skipped on an event scheduled with some peers to discuss the 2016 election. One end of the reason to pass came from real exhaustion amidst the last few weeks of moving apartments and holiday celebrations. The other, however, from the exhaustion of the weight of the election, and believing that its outcome, in part, came from the nation's collective fear: fear that motivated people to vote for "he-who-must-not-be-named" of a changing global economy; fear of him being voted in (and its resulting free press) by his opponents. And, this is the result - the amalgamation of fear. I simply did not want to give any more thought of it - this thought made it happen.
My decision, it turns out, looped back, to a strain of thought I've given particular attention to over the last few weeks: what we think, we manifest.
2016 has been a year of serious transition. Changing jobs, changing relationships, changing living arrangements, countless job interviews, journal entires and heart-to-hearts to decide "what I was doing with my life" - move to NYC? Move to Mexico City? Travel (with money I don't currently have)? Apply to bschool this instant?
If 2016's journey convinced me of anything, its that - more than ever- we must honor to the essential quality of seeking joy, hope, and optimism for survival. It has also made me more committed to a 2017 focused on putting energy toward what I desire in my life, as opposed to spending energy on what I fear.
What does this mean?
- Envisioning and FEELING what I want - like I already have it - rather than fear of what I don't want. Do I want the perfect job? As close as possible. This means I need to write down, sit with, and FEEL like I have it already. See myself in the office setting I want, seeing the salary come in I want, have the responsibilities I want.
- Filtering out the bad: Yes, I believe in being informed and taking action on what we need to change; though like many of my fellow social justice advocates, after our initial mourning of the election results, we woke up mad. Some of us (like myself) have forced ourselves to be glad. Perhaps out of coping, I came to the conclusion that the last thing this new administration would want is someone like me - a woman, a person of color, child of Mexican immigrants - succeeding, living my life and finding joy. So, I must two-times-over put my effort to taking care of myself, finding happiness, and sticking to my goals for success. This may mean unfollowing people on social media and avoiding a certain amount of news, in hope that anything truly essential will find its way in.
- Being present & being grateful: This election showed that anything can happen in an instant. On Nov. 9, 2016, we woke up in a different country than we had been in the night before. I intend to work to be more present this year - be less on my phone, on social media, of constantly thinking what my next task to complete is rather than fully committing to the one at hand. I hope to pause every day to list that for which I'm grateful for as to feel what it is I have, as well as more deliberately use my time offline to work toward my goals.
As the world faced its new reality at the end of 2016, I signed up for a studio apartment I'm not 100% sure I'll be able to pay in a few months, I'm taking a professional sabbatical the next few months to find an opportunity that really speaks to me, among areas of uncertainty. 2016 taught me that we don't have time to wait for the good we want in our lives. We must embrace it every day as if we already have the one that we want. What we think, we manifest.